Pity Party Tuesday

I’m designating this day as Pity Party Tuesday. This morning, I thought about how the holidays are rolling along, and at this point it’s nearly certain that I will not find a job until 2017. I’ve been applying for jobs since August and networking and trying to stay busy. I don’t know how much longer I can maintain optimism, y’all. Unemployment in Austin is low, and I have watched a long line of friends land great new jobs.

Last fall was nearly identical to this one, months of applying for jobs, to the point that I feel as though I am stuck on a merry-go-round. Greg and I are even open to moving for my job, but that comes with the ridiculous implication that I can somehow land a job in a different place.

I should blog more, at least, but I feel like I can’t write honestly. All I want to write is: Will I ever be hired? Ever?! Instead, I write about books and movies and anything that could be more interesting than a bored, lonely unemployed lady. I worry that if I write honestly, I will be forced to answer for it at a future job interview. Because I do get asked about this blog in interviews and find myself stumbling to explain some post from three years ago in which I said I was bad with technology. If I can’t write honestly, then what is the point of this space?

The staying busy mainly involves doing every type of charitable work imaginable. I’m a mentor with an organization that provides support to women who have lost pregnancies or babies, and I was just matched with a new mom today. This morning, I bought groceries for the food bank. And this evening, I head to the hospital for my volunteer shift there.

This charitable work is done partly (selfishly) with the hope that putting good into the world will mean that good things come back to me. Mostly, I want to be of use.

4 thoughts on “Pity Party Tuesday

  1. Oh man, I’m sorry. So not fun.

    I’m actually just starting to look around for other opportunities. I have the summer off though and I’m really hesitant to consider anything that is full-time, 12 month. And pretty much everything is.

    But then I read job descriptions and they ask for cover letters and resumes and applications and it’s just so very overwhelming.

    I’m hoping 2017 starts with a bang – and a new job – for you, Sarah!

    And shit. Didn’t even think of a potential employer finding my blog.

  2. That last paragraph is super honest and I think we’re all that way, to an extent. If I put out good, it will come back to me when I need it/want it/crave it.

    I hope EARLY 2017 brings good for you… something new.

    I’m hoping 2017 brings me something too, honestly.

  3. That’s a rough place to be… it’s easy to feel our sense of self worth is defined in part by the work we do, when it’s really so much more than that. My husband is happy in his job but would love to cut down his commute. Applying for jobs is stressful and tedious, which is such a crappy combination. Wishing you best of luck.

  4. Heather, I should add that the interviewers typically only ask about work-related things I have posted. Sometimes they do say that my writing is “beautiful” or “moving,” which I think is code for “sad.”

    Brooke, long commutes are the part I am not looking forward to and also one of the reasons we have talked about moving, whether that is within Austin or elsewhere. It’s really hard to find a situation where both spouses have a reasonable commute.

    Brandy, I am hoping for good things for you in 2017! I have enjoyed watching all of your new adventures since moving.

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