Back in February, I bought an immense GRE practice book (literally the “5 lb. Book of GRE Practice Problems”), and I’ve spent the past two months working my way through it. Yesterday, I took the GRE, and earned a score higher than the score I got back in college. Granted, I barely studied then because I was taking tests nearly every week.
“What are you going to do with all of your free time now?” Greg asked last night. “Go grocery shopping without the kids,” I said. That’s my idea of a great day out.
But what am I really going to do now? The tentative plan is that I will apply to schools in the fall so that I can go back for a master’s of public health. This feels equal parts exciting and insane. Is this what our family is supposed to do? When I was younger, I moved cross-country with barely a thought, but I knew that was what I was meant to do. College, internships, and new jobs fell into my perfect little life plan. Now I am making the same sorts of decisions I made at 22 but with three other people to consider. Is there a manual for adulthood that no one has told me about?
Also, as much as Greg and I are proponents of personal growth and trying new things, we are bad at making major changes. Really bad, you guys. It took us 10 years to buy patio furniture, and even then we only committed to the love seat.
I have a long list of reasons why my going back to school is a great idea, not just for me but for our whole family. I would like for our kids to learn that they can adapt and make friends in new places. I would like for them to see that even old people like me can try something new. I would like for us to have adventures in a different part of the country (With snow?), and yes, okay, maybe for Henry’s thick southern accent to diminish (He calls that place you stay on vacation a “hotail.”).
I have watched enviously as other friends have gone back to school, moved away. Now that it finally feels like my turn, I worry that I’m not brave enough. Our life here is very comfortable, and change is uncomfortable, to put it mildly. Stay tuned.